Goodbye to my first solo apartment

 Goodbye to my first apartment :( After I left my mom's house at 18 I've always stayed with a boyfriend or a roommate. I never lived by myself before. I've had terrible experiences with roommates one even turned physical. I vowed that I would never have a roommate or live with someone ever again. Well, that didn't go as planned because my boyfriend & I ended up having a really close relationship so we moved in with each other. We were so excited about the new home and the fact that it was ours and we did it together. Fast forward a few months, and I realized that we just were two different people and lived two different ways. He wasn't a dirty person, he just didn't cook or clean at all. I worked full time and also went to school full time so it was unfair to me that he didn't think he needed to contribute to "our" household. I tried to communicate but everything just stayed the same. We finally decided to end it and move on. When he first moved out I was scared because I never lived by myself before. I was having anxiety about what if I lose my job and can't pay my bills or what if someone breaks into my home and I'm all alone. All of those fears left me after about a month. I started to come into the little girl that used to be in my room and do whatever I wanted, except no one was there to judge me but myself. I could cry at any time. I could dance at 4am in the dark. I could be weird and talk to myself like a normal human being. I could cook when I wanted to cook. Leave my unfolded clean laundry on my bed or couch for a week. My first apartment was everything to me. The leasing office was even better. They were patient and understanding with any personal problems that I ran into. The maintenance was done the next day after submitting a ticket. Everything was truly an amazing experience and meant just for me. I thank god that things didn't turn out how I wanted them to because I was blessed to experience a lifestyle that I truly don't think I can give away. The art of living alone. I'm on to another city and yet another home that I pray god will make great for me just like he did my last. Goodbye to my little one-bed, one-bath peaceful apartment. You taught me a lot and I will forever remember my first.